Day 9

Today is day 9 of grief
Today I feel a bit more pain
But I’m also grateful for the pain because it means I’m processing my emotions
I’m also aware that denial as much as sadness are both experienced in grief
For now, denying my emotions is the only way I’m able to cope so I can work
But I know a time will come when missing you will become too overbearing and I won’t help myself but cry
Maybe in a week, maybe in a day, maybe even in an hour.
But for now though, I’ll just have to accept that whatever I’m doing, this grief improvisation, is the best I can do for the time being...